My Desire, His Plan.

I have been writing this piece in bits for weeks, decided to share it now because I finally got the  message. And again, it took me a while to decide on the topic but tonight my sister and best friend read the rough sheet and gave me one.... My desire, His plan!

In 1st Sam 1, the bible says God shut Hannah's womb, not the devil, not previous abortions, not past sexual encounters gone wrong. What do you do when the one you are praying to is the source of your problem???.... That got me thinking about so many things that I have cursed and blamed the devil for in the past lol.

As Christians we need to understand that sometimes God creates problems for us so that He can show off His glory through us.

Most great miracles start out with pain. God shut her womb so she could hurt bad enough, to break her in all the right places, to see how bad she really wanted it.

God creates tension in our lives so we can search for him and he could sort us out.

All Hannah wanted was a child to show her husband and the world that she wasn't barren but her purpose was to bring forth Samuel who...

1.  Led Israel for many years in the combined roles of prophet, priest, and judge.

2. Anointed Saul as Israel’s first king after the people demanded a king like those of the other nations ( 1st sam 1:8).

3. When Saul turned from God, David was anointed by Samuel to rule.

And we all know how that story ends. Hannah gave birth to a boy who became a man that anointed David whose lineage our Lord Jesus came from. If only Hannah knew that.

Purpose can't be bought off.  Purpose makes you leave a paying job to work for free. 

Sometimes our will is to go left while Gods will is for us to stay where we are or go right or go forward and sometimes he is saying go Back.

The more you pull the bow back, the further the arrow shoots!!!

You can not find your purpose Until you find the core of your pain.... SELAH

Peninnah was put there to get on Hannah's nerves, in biblical terms 'to provoke Hannah', it was mentioned twice by the way... 1sam 1:6 and 1:7

Sometimes God blesses people around you to create a thirst in you, to provoke you to seek him more, to work even harder, to make a vow just like Hannah did. God knew Samuel would be born and that the boy would be needed, but he wanted her to offer him willingly which she did eventually.

Finally, Just because you have favor doesn't mean you have purpose. Hannah was favored by her husband..... 1sam 1: 'On the day when Elkanah sacrificed, he would give portions to Peninnah his wife and to all her sons and daughters. But to Hannah he gave a double portion, because he loved her'.

 She could have been content with that and assume her purpose was to be her husbands favorite but God still put in her a void/emptiness that only a child could fill. So when you get to a place in your life where everything seems to be going well but you still have this thirst for something greater or different or feel like there is still a void or emptiness, that could just be God saying 'that ain't your purpose' , 'son/daughter, there is still more in store for you'.

I have no clue what next but there's one thing I am sure of, being just a medical doctor isn't the end for me, it's just the beginning.

Dr MeeMs